I lost my dog of 13 1/2 years to cancer three weeks ago. I was doing OK at first…but as time ticked away I felt myself slipping into numbness. Complete numbness. I can’t feel a thing, not even the pain.
I’m not falling any deeper than that, the meds help. But I can’t seem to turn my thoughts off. And music is doing what it can to fill the space left behind. Which I suppose could be worse. Like paranoia, delusions, suicidal thoughts, etc…
She (the dog) was the momma dog to her four kids that we have from the same litter. So it has hit really hard. I’m struggling to get through the day, even with all the love from her kids.
I haven’t much left. Just needed to write it out.
Thanks for listening.